Yesterday was a rough “preggie body” day. So far, I’m totally loving the bump. It makes me feel like a woman. I don’t mind the expanding waist line because I know what it’s for. It’s not because I downed a dozen cupcakes , it’s because, HELLO, I’m growing a baby. That being said, yesterday was rough.
**I know that these are silly feelings. I know that it’s superficial and unimportant. I know that it’s because I’m growing a baby….but still, I was a wreck….an irrational, hormonal wreck.**
It started like this….A lady at school came up to me to analyze my belly and make her gender prediction. This is, of course, a totally normal daily occurrence. This is not what sucked. This is what she said, “I think it’s a girl because, no offense, your hips are getting wider and girls do that to you.” Ok- no problem. My hips are getting wider because, HELLO, I’m growing a baby. Brush it off and move on.
Then….I got a facebook message from someone on one of our baby pictures that said, “Babies are gross in the womb.” Well, thank you and you were once a baby in a womb so booya.
Continue my day with an evening at the gym accompanied by a less than normal self esteem and a good sized portion of insecurity. I was wearing a normal t-shirt and stretchy pants. I didn’t look particularly pregnant…just like I had a gut. I felt like a heifer! I was looking around at all of the skinny, pretty people and felt embarrassed. I felt like I didn’t belong there. I felt like everyone was looking and judging the fat girl. It was not a good feeling. And then, after only 15 minutes on the bike and 9 minutes on the elliptical machine, I got light headed and had to stop….embarrassed.
And the cherry on top----I get home from the gym, feeling defeated and sorry for myself, and thus ensues the stretch mark conversation. Needless to say, I had quite the little sob fest before falling asleep.
I’m feeling a little better today and even laughing at the entire situation a little just please, never tell a pregnant lady that her hips are getting wider, her baby is gross and she has stretch marks.